Other Experiences
Below are the "interviews" I conducted before I started my project. I asked 5 people to talk about their respective thoughts on internalized homophobia. It was a super open-ended question which let me really get a better idea of what everyone's different perspectives were. A common theme amongst the responses where that they often felt like a "pervert" or a "deviant" because of their identities. Internalized homophobia can look similar for a lot of people but it's important to note how different situations and environments shape what gets internalized.
A conversation with a friend about her experience.
In my comic I talked about how important having friends to talk to is. I got permission from my best friend to share a conservation we had about her thoughts on internalized homophobia and how it effected her experience. This is by no means a professionally interview but I think that's important. It shows just how light hearted conversations about mutual struggles can be. It really does help to have someone to joke around and laugh with.
A look back at my mindset in 2018
If you have read through the comic then you know that at one point I mentioned talking to my friends before coming to terms with the fact I was a Lesbian. This is the introspection I did, nearly 2 years ago, on a bus as I went back and forth for what felt like the 500th time about my sexuality. I felt like sharing it here would be a nice way of really showing what it is like to be battling internalized homophobia and Comp Het in the moment. Now I can look back and point out what was going on but even though I was aware of internalized homophobia during this bus ride, you can still see how difficult it was to understand what was plainly laid out in front of me.
I blocked out some names and some more personally information (I'm already exposing myself a lot here so IÂ hope you don't mind) that I wasn't comfortable sharing.
